Utterly bored and there are hardly any places to surf. FP is boring with stiff and dry topics. Some of them not even worth mentioning about. Since I got nothing else better to do, then i shall do what i do better, RANT. HWHAHAHAHAHA. Let's talk abt something not very nice - bitches. No no, not the female dog but bitch as in relation to a fucked up woman. Let's see, how many bitches have I met so far? Let's start from NS. Well there are certainly alot of them inside such a fucked up organisation. When 99.5% of things do not generally run well, how composed can anyone get? I rem there are bitches in the S1 office who think they are the queens and princesses in that department. They generally hate people, work and are lazy with lousy attitudes towards most things. 1st job, in fact none. 2nd job, nope, people at British Council are nice n warm and friendly. Most likely due to a nice working enviroment. 3rd job, on yesh aplenty. This job made me realise how poly grads are generally classified as 2nd class workers in SG cos the majority of the executives there are DEGREE holders. Bitches are a plenty. Office politics and arrows. It is a hidden war zone with invisbibly cloaked arrows flying all ard. MD is a miserable miser biatch. Some managers are also useless seat warmers. Not much of bitches in my other jobs. Of some of gals I have dated or whom I went out wif, some were really not that nice. Is it me or something else? Some chided me for calling them and asking how they were. Fine, fine, Im oke with that. If they wan to be left alone, I will respect their decisions. Afterall, Im such a 'gentleman' who is easily bullied. Some think they are some hot desirable babes whom all men wanna date and bed. Some are innocently indecent biatches. They innocently lead u on the nose, telling they have ' a liking for u' (while knowing u like them as well) then telling u not to think too much and etc etc. One fine day, they tell u, 'oh i change my mind, i like more 'OUT SPOKEN' tanned and leaner guys better. U r no longer on my hao gan list.' yaya go ahead, be my guest.. It is true how silly infatuation can blind u so much to lower ur dignity and pride to actually like some loose pussies.*PUI PUI PUI* Come to think of it, I will actually laugh at myself for actually liking such 'people' in the past. Anyway, I hate bearing grudges cos its such a taxing thiing to do, I rather surf porn, post in FP, crap, eat and shit than to hate someone for an extended period of time. So all those who think they might be involved in the above, take no offence I hope. U r all forgiven to some extend. WHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No worries! One of the few things I simply cannot bear to hear is to hear gals spitting vulgarities from their mouth. Feminist will say, MEN n WOMEN are equal. Yeah equal. Equal my LJ! God made men and women to have their own specific roles. How can they be equal??? Man is an individual and so is woman. That's it. Why is there a need to complicate things and have feminist burning their bras in protest. No sex is more superior than the other. Both complement each other. Anyway, blogging nowadays is sooooo tedious. U have to be careful of what u wanna type esp in SG where we are living in a mutlti-racial society. Any remarks with regards to racism will spark unwanted uniformed peronnels knocking at ur doorsteps. A few bloggers have been charged for penning down racism in their blog. I thot no one reads my little pathetic blog. Until I saw this : 1. Singapore 2311 91.3 %
2. United States 116 4.6 %
3. Australia 16 0.6 %
4. Japan 14 0.6 %
5. United Kingdom 10 0.4 %
6. Canada 8 0.3 %
7. Malaysia 6 0.2 %
8. Hong Kong S.A.R. 4 0.2 %
9. Turkey 3 0.1 %
10. India 3 0.1 %
11. Netherlands, The 3 0.1 %
12. Italy 3 0.1 %
13. South Africa 2 0.1 %
14. Germany 2 0.1 %
15. Belgium 2 0.1 %
16. Saudi Arabia 2 0.1 %
17. Switzerland 2 0.1 %
18. Philippines 2 0.1 %
19. Argentina 1 0.0 %
20. Portugal 1 0.0 %
21. Brazil 1 0.0 %
22. Thailand 1 0.0 %
23. Chile 1 0.0 %
24. France 1 0.0 %
25. China 1 0.0 %
Unknown 5 0.2 %
The rest 9 0.4 %
Total 2530 100.0 %
Im sure most of them simply click on my blog. haha.
As above, my new blogskin which took me ard one day to complete. HWHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Do u all have a period of time when u laugh but u r not laughing heartlily from within? It is like laughing just for the sake of laughing, laughing to make urself feel 'good' to feel happy. It is like a dry cough. The laugh is dry, the happiness seem a pretence like a decorative facade, a nice brightly colored piece of fabric to wrap ard ur inner-self, simply to tell the superficial world that hey 'Im alright, im fine n dandy'. The fact is, when everything seems so dry and scratchy, how well is that person really is from within? What is he/she lacking? Love? Companionship? Healing? When this wall comes tumbling down one day, what will u see? Something raw and pink? hahahhahaha
Went for an interview on Tues for the position of an operations executive. As usual, I was there too early due to a bad sense of timing. The venue was at Rex House which is juz further down Sim Lim Square, surprisingly I do not know of this Rex House even tho I passed by there every time I go to Sim Lim, ahhahaha. First impression of the company, woah not bad. Pretty big and new. When I went up to the reception, I got a nice surprise. Sitting on the desk was a iMac G4! The half sphere CPU with a LCD. It was not on anyway hahha. I was given a form to fill up. I hate filling up forms cos it is such a hassle. Another nice suprise was I saw a iMac G5 in the meeting room! woohoo..this company sure know how to use good stuff. When I was inside the meeting room, I realise there was an iSight (Apple's SGD258 webcam) connected to it! There was also a huge lcd TV (with alot of fingerprints). Overall quite an impressive setup. The operation manager and HR Manager interviewed me telling me on the roles of this position. Things I rem were 'very irregular hours, airport, 3am in the morning, 12am in the morning go airport, coordination, contractors, hotels etc etc." I initially thot it was a similar position I had when i was working in the travel agency but apparently, this position encompasses alot more. They stressed this is not a travel agency but is in the hospitality industry. It involves events management, coordination etc etc. Right, the interview ended and I went home shortly after walking to SLS. Been feeling uber lazy these few days, I honestly do not feel like doing anything. Now my routine is wake up, online, lunch, tv, online,nap,bathe,online,TV,dinner,online,TV,online, sleep. -.-||| Think my mum is right, it's not good couching too long at home. I actually felt refreshed when I stepped out for the interview. ahhaa. Things has been well generally, no emotional ups and downs. I simply can't be bothered now. The only thing I haven been quite active was like posting alot in FP. HWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Seen quite alot silly posts lately. There was this klutz who seem not to have a idea on how to woo a gal amidst other seemingly silly posts. No wonder what, most human will look for love, love love. Not for me at least in the meantime. I am now thinking, if I get accepted by UniSIM. I might need to get a notebook. The more afforable ones seem to be from Dell and HP. IBM ones are exp and needless to say Apple's own portables line. The newly 'updated' powerbooks with better battery and higher res screens costs the same as the new powermacs. $3688 -..- With student discount it is $3300+++ SO EXXXPPPPPPPPPP~~~ Jpn test tml...tsk, not yet prepare for my oral test. Good thing is im meeting some podder friends tml. One guy will be booking out for the 1st time. hahaha..
we no money we no care
we wear cheap cheap underwear
if it tears we dun care
we go buy another pair underwear, everywhere x2
we no money we no care
as long we can teh neh neh
f it burst we dun care
we go find another pair
dua neh neh, everywhere x2
-courtesy of podder mrlemon
无??肯或不肯
我都??等
等到??束好久
探?的旅程
要是没有寂寞陪?
没有途中的灰?
?怎会向往家?
?越是想要??
其?越残忍
?装不了??我
漠?的眼神
?不?我听信永恒
不?我迷信我?
不?我?不?身
多想化成?形的人
掩?我?痕
??我的体温
好???走寒冷
看不?也能感受心疼
我想化成?形的人
?藏我的泪在翻?
我在?凌乱世界
留下的指?
??是没心跳的一个吻
朋友都于心不忍
??我愚蠢
但他?都回避我
?着的眼神
可知我??的虔?
可知我迷信我?
可知我?得放任
多想化成?形的人
掩?我?痕
??我的体温
好???走寒冷
看不?也能感受心疼
我想化成?形的人
?藏我的泪在翻?
我在?凌乱世界
留下的指?
??是没心跳的一个吻
多想化成?形的人
掩?我?痕
??我的体温
好???走寒冷
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?藏我的泪在翻?
我在?凌乱世界
留下的指?
??是没心跳的一个吻无??肯或不肯
我都??等
等到??束好久
探?的旅程
要是没有寂寞陪?
没有途中的灰?
?怎会向往家?
?越是想要??
其?越残忍
?装不了??我
漠?的眼神
?不?我听信永恒
不?我迷信我?
不?我?不?身
多想化成?形的人
掩?我?痕
??我的体温
好???走寒冷
看不?也能感受心疼
我想化成?形的人
?藏我的泪在翻?
我在?凌乱世界
留下的指?
??是没心跳的一个吻
Dun u all think she is almost a perfect woman? wHHAHAHAHAHA I often thot what's the big whoohaa over this Taiwanese model. As for looks I find her soso, I seen much prettier ones elsewhere. After seeing her in Kang Xi Lai Le (which i think is last yr's), I realise why she is driving so many men crazy. It is not her looks but her character which is so unimaginable simple and almost seemingly naive. Women like her will make men to go crazy cos she seems to be in dire needs of protection. Men will love to offer their protection to her. And one thing, she sounds so 'dia' ?...abit cannot tahan. I personally cannot really withstand gals with such a 'dia' ? voice. The moment she 'activates' her dia-ness, men all go soft on their knees.. ahhahahahha. People say she is all acting sweet and cuddly and cute. Personally I think this is juz the way she is! For those who are acting all sweety n cute, it will like Xiao S. Anyone can tell it. The fact that 林志玲 occurs the jealousy of alot of women is becos she is simply naturally so sweet and 'dia'. She is not like Stella Ng, fwah that one is definitely overload. Fiona Xie is also quite naturally 'dia' and sweet to me at least.
A close friend started this. 老鼠?大米，???大便，我?睡大?，(《??my friend's) 猴子?大便，男人???，女人??叫 （〈??mine) ??什??？ Will greatly appreciate any more inputs. WHAHHAHAHAAHHAHA Btw the "??" thing is an inspiration which I got from ??百分百
Yaya im bored and complaining. I am bored and a litttle bitter over the remnants of something which happened. Im not that gentleman afterall. In fact I nv am one. ahhahaha. I developed a distaste for men who can't speak shut their fucking gap. They are the women's best friends, they are the 'jiemeis', they know prob more stuff abt makeup,fashion, cooking,accessories then most women. They can talk well, they know anything under the sun and can talk abt anything under the sun. They are emotional baskets, they are OUT-SPOKEN :X, they can speak well, they are very likeable by most people. People find them fun and friendly and easy-going. They apply masks, go for facials, use SKII, BHA AHA whatever HA, I bet they shave their armpits, trim their eyebrows, will squeal over a new pimple, an extra gray hair or an extra fine eye on their face, will hide their flawless skin under an umbrella whenever they go out. They can speak non-stop. Virtually non-stop. How in the world can a person yak non-stop? Its an amazing feat. They nv seem to run outta energy. I bet they have very powerful tongues and they shld be tongue-fu masters, whatever they use their tongue for. gehehe. Raah...i often tell people not to bear grudges and here am i. ahhahha No one's perfect. So dun complaint, oke?
_|_ 地獄に永遠に燃えろ！この糞愛想笑い女形め！
Right, so I got myself into some witty mind game. I should have known better. Anyway, case closed. Im doing fine. Still alive and kicking, feeling normal. Its a small thing anyway. I have been thru enough shit to be beaten down by this. I was looking at my past blog entries. Little did I know I was blogging since 2003! From having a gf to being single to getting mind fucked..so much had happened in this period of time. The time I enjoyed most while single was prob the time when I was hanging out with the single podders. 1st, 2nd meeting were great. 3rd meeting was fine too. I read from a fellow friend's (single podder as well) abt some internal issues which happened this period. I hope everything is more or less settled, whatever they might be. Certain things are best guo le jiu suan le ba, ?了就算了?. I am always one the last or one of the last to know what's going on in a grp, is it me or am I just too 'wood' to know?ahhaha. Sometimes it is also good not to know too much. Getting urself entangled in petty political mind games or whatever is nv a nice experience. For me I just want a grp or clinque of guys n gals to hang out and have fun with. Will it be nice if things are simple like this? I hope things can stay simple. Have anyone of u added so many people in ur MSN list until sometimes U do not really know who they are? hahaha I think I have over 100 people in my list. Good thing is I am using Adium (Mac's IM prgm which can connect u to almost all the IM prgms now) which can actually allow me to rename my MSN's contact individually. I cant imagine if everyone decide to change their nick from time to time..how am I supposed to recognise them?? ahaha
I happened to get to know this gal, A. Initially, it was juz some normal sms and MSN chats. But as time goes by we proceeded to phonecalls and such. She was having some problems with her one of her ex as she could not get over him. So being a friend, I offered my advices and was hoping she cld eventually get over her ex. Subsequently,we had more phone chats and smses. Whenever she was feeling down or needed someone to tok to, I would be there to lend a listening ear to her. Soon we met up, it was an unforgetable meeting. This gal A was bubbly,cheery full of energy and charismatic. She cracked up at the slighest comment I made. In other words, she made me feel very special. I know I was in 'trouble' this time. We also met up a 2nd time which was also an unforgetable date. Somehow I knew this gal was not really my type cos she was really more of the extrovert. But somehow again I was really attracted to her. I was supposed to meet her for the 3rd time but I was also thinking if this gal was really suitable for me. Thus I believed she went out with her another guy friend on the Sunday when we were supposed to meet. My sms to her also lessened considerably. This continued to Monday when she actually told me she got a liking for me. Feeling over the moon, I admitted I like her too. She told me not to think too much cos she was not that sure of her feelings yet as she felt weird cos I lessened my smses to her considerably. She dunno if she was too used to my sms or feeling something else. But things did not go well, the next day. She told me she was confused cos her crush (another guy who was good looking and those playboy type) sent her weird smses hinting he was interested in her too. I was quite shattered cos I did not know she was actually KIV-ing (keep in view) 2 potential guys to be her bf. I knew that guy was not serious and just playing mind games. 3 days later, she told me she was over this guy. She also said to me she was a very fickle minded person and can easily change of heart. We met for the 3rd and 4th time. I also to know her better as she had a more subtle side of her which made me to be more attracted to her. I did try to distant from her for the 2nd time but she sorta like pull me back asking me not to really distant from her. Eventually, she did ask me some personal qns of which one is one of her most important criterial for becoming her bf. Anyway I met her criterial. She said she was happy to know I met her criterial. Soon our smses became more 'intimate' with 'i miss u, do u miss me' stuff. I assumed she was still unsure but she told me one night that she was more or less sure what or who she wanted now. (50% 50%) Back then I was on the only guy on her 'list' She got herself into some 'trouble' last Sat during clubbing and I was on e phone all the way with her to make sure she was alright and got home safely. I did offer to bring her home via cab but her frineds sent her home. We met on this morning (sunday) for KTV. It was pretty fun as usual. Later we met up 2 of her friends and her cousin for board games. One of her friend is a nice guy who is out-spoken, have gift of the tongue, knowledgable, easy going and can relate to ladies well. Me being tired after a 4 hr KTV session was well being more quiet. Well I did not really have the chance to tok much since that guy friend was practically speaking since we all met. Later at night, she told me she think she was more in for guys who are more out-spoken and I am not in her 'list' anymore. She also mentioned to me she was not interested in this above mentioned guy friend whom she affectionately call him 'da jie'. She did apologise to me if she ever mislead me in anyways. Its not a very nice feeling i mst say. but.. Well I guess she is more or less over her ex now. But do u gals and guys think i was being too stupid,too dumb, too goody 2 shoes to do all those for her? I nv expect anything in return in the 1st place tho. Thank you for reading.
I slept a little earlier than usual last night. Not quite myself. Anyway I was abruptly woken up by a disturbing dream in the morning. It is disturbing becos I dreamt of my late dad who passed away almost 5 yrs ago. This is dream is particularly bewildering as it left my inner self tangled and shell shocked. I dream he jumped down from my old flat in AMK. Why AMK? I dunno! Alright, it was in the afternoon. He popped a cig like he always did after lunch. Then he disappeared. The next scene was I saw him outside his room's window. Cut scene. I saw him walking and balancing himself on the bamboo sticks used for hanging out ur clothes. It came to my surprise later how the bamboo did not succumb to his weight. He kept puffing his cig, then he threw the cig down. A moment later, he jumped down as well. I could even remember how he flipped and turned and the position of his hands when he was plummeting down. I rem I was with my mum witnessing this tragedy. Soon after, he landed on a grass patch with a thump and even bounced up abit. No blood, nothing at all, perhaps sub-sub conciously I did not want to see the blood and gaw? The next moment I woke up. It was so surreal. The incident looked real and yet not so cos he already passed away. So what's it all abt? Anyway this is not the 1st time I dreamt abt him. I would rather he gave some numbers for me to strike 4D or something. Felt better after telling HY and another friend who even helped me to decipher this dream. haha. amazing. But I felt really good after sweating it out after a short 10 min skipping. (yes i started finally) When the pespiration poured out, I felt refreshed and rejuvinated. For a moment I even felt happy. Dreams are dreams..whatever they really mean.
Music @ Blue Note was great. Live music always sounds the best. Mood was high and that was it. The red wine made me feel drowsy. Red wine is still better tasting than beer. Obviously. Beer still tastes horrible no matter what. Reached home at ard 1am. Waiting for a long awaited sms. Oke it came but it did not bode good news. Anyway case closed. Apparently disturbed but things are oke. Like a pierced ballon, I was perpetually leaking energy. Mum's nagging did not help. She was blaming me for waking her up and also other stuff. Really cannot stand her nagging sometimes. Today is juz a day where i laze ard, upload pics, chatted online, visit forums, napped. Mum bought braised duck from AMK Central. Tasted good of cos, but somehow it lacked something. I dunno what it was..but its just lacked something. Was it the peanuts? I dunno... Down time...hated it when im like this.
U know what is called good Japanese food? Here they are : Here are the people! And last but nott least, me and Chervon =D
Katsudon 
Erm..salmon something don forgot its name 
Grateful for the lovely people who came : Xuan (special appearance for 1 hr),Xiaozhen,Terry,KK,Adrian, Saman,Gwen,Chervon,Siew Hwa and her friend. 
The lovely gals. 
The equally handsome n cute guys, excluding myself.
Grp foto @ Blue Note which is a very nice place to hang out and chill with nice rock n roll, jazz, blues. 
Another one. 
Saman, Terry and XZ 
Saman and her fave XZ :X 
Saman and her another fave KK who will be enlisted next Fri..will see him botak abt 3 weeks later. 
XZ the...rocker...we could not believe he actually requested to pose with a guitar. hahaha 
me n saman. e sofa was too soft, oke..tats why i looked 'shorter'
[I Love]
God, church of our saviour, food,animation,photography,games, Jpn culture, pretty gals, high-tech gadgets, comics, Gundam models, layered hair, plucked eyebrows, mascara, blusher, Mika Nakashima,Ayumi Hamasaki, Namie Amuro, Sun Yanzi, Jay Chou, David Tao, Faye Wong, F.I.R, Flowerpod, Yoon Eun Hye,Fiona Xie, Lin Zhi Ling, Yoon Eun Hye
[I Abhore]
hypocrisy, injustice, shallowness, materialism, lies.
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