Johann Low

月曜日, 7月 31, 2006

[same things happen(?)]

This is disturbing, exactly at ard this period last yr,there was some FP outings. So I went, met some people,some became friends, some did not. Then this yr, same thing happened again. This coming Wed there will be an outing. Or rather a movie outing, im not particular keen on watching that movie.Anyway, it is unlikely i will be going for this outing, athough some did ask me to go. I rather be engmatic ahhahaha..There will be another one but it seems like that r more guys for that one..and i only knew like 2 gals? One whom i have met last yr and one whom i did not.

Past experience told me not to meddle too much too deep esp with people. Cos u will not know what are they up to. Meddling or getting urself too involved in other people's affairs be it, love, family will only get urself into a pit of shit. Why wld anyone get themselves to be smeared in shit? hahaa..When people meet, differences between them cause ridges, ridges cause them to dislike them..dislike will cause politics among a group of people.Cliches happen..

honestly i dunno why i like to harp on old passe issues. does it matter? why shld i let it bother me? Anyway, i dun mind going to this wed outing but im not that keen on that movie and it is a WEDNESDAY which is smacked in the middle of the week. If i rush there frm work, i will be tired, hopefull not drenched with pespiration hahahaha and i will be dammmm quiet. Hope that next outing will be on a better day..but with more guys tho and 2 gals? Im sure those guys will wanna chase one of the gal. =X

I will try to dissipate all the negativity I have about people. I am going to be my 'fun' self and enjoy the company and hopefully food. ahhahaha..

Time to come out of the shell!

elow at 12:23 午前 | (0) comments

日曜日, 7月 23, 2006

[withdrawal]

recently i really abhore the idea of meeting people, or even seeing them, esp tonnes of them.When I am taking the trains, I will face the side of the door which will only open at Braddell and Cityhall. the other side which opens and the sight of people gushing in like a mad river or like a burst dam at almost all the other stations is too overwhelming.

I think humans are ugly. It is much assuring looking at other animals and plants than to look at my own kind. I dislike the idea of going to orchard where hordes of people roam the streets. i was asked to join my bunch of poly mates for ktv, movie n dinner. But wheni heard there will be a rather big grp, be it gf with the bf, or guy with the bf, imagine a sight with unknown pple kinda 'freak' me out. cos I dunno how to deal wif them. Anyway I turned down the 'invitation'. I am probably not on their official list anyway.

A colleague was married yesterday. Not particularly close to her but again the sight of unknown people, esp big grp of unknown people made me to decide to turn down the invitation haha. Somehow i feel more secured in my old small n warm room than to meet things like people. I dun mind meeting my friends but a big grp with unknown people, no no, for now that is.hahaa

But chatting wif people online seems to be ok tho, mayb its at the comfort of my home. thanks to previous experience, if i were to ever meet them, im sure things will be not so nice again. It is always 'nicer' to speak virtually than to meet up in person. Perhaps I dun have such an approachable nature and face, tats why i find it harder to interact with people? But im really easy going most of the time, im generally fine with anything.

Anyway, workwise, is ok. Some hiccups here n there..somehow the PRCs just dunno how to or dun wanna follow instructions. They r getting tad handful.Tis order is gonna be a loooooong one..since it is almost worth 500k SGD of products. eeks.

elow at 11:59 午後 | (0) comments

日曜日, 7月 16, 2006

[things happen]

Things do happen. On thurs, one colleague left the company.She's the Malaysian gal whom i have described in one of my entries. I was abit taken aback cos it was so unexpected. She is one of the most garung worker in the company. Anyway i know roughly e reason she is leaving.So we had some farewell lunch with her.

Saturday was lazing at home. Could not really napped cos of some happenings from office. China side screwed up some of the delivery schedules Arrhhh anyway, things seem ok for now.Half of Sun was spent at my uncle's place to celebrate my grandma's death anniversary cum gathering. Some of my cousins were there. Anyway, i was more keen on the food.

My aunt cooked mixed veg, zai chai, with dao gi, mushrooms, cabbages, fatty pork, dao gua, gam cham (whatever that is in Chinese), another aunt brought soy sauce pork! WAH LAO =O~~~~~ damm nice man, the zaichai was also good. Mum bought 10 meat buns, 1 box of roasted chicken, there was also hor fun which was really yummy cos i nv had such nice tasting hor fun for a long time,

The thing i hated was the amount of smoke i had to endure cos the wind was blowing the smoke from burning the incence paper. It was suffocating! My cousins and i choked, teared and there's hardly place to run away from the smoke. Wah lao open the door so big for what..anyway we were watching some nice shows on makeup (mei li yi neng jie) hosted by Yi Neng Jing..haiz i always like shows on makeup..dunno why, I always like makeup..im wonderin if i shld go for a makeup dip course.

anyway,life is as it is...it still goes on.

elow at 11:26 午後 | (0) comments

月曜日, 7月 10, 2006

[I thot I cld]

The past 2 entries were full of anguish and of cos laced with vulgarities. I mean what other ways to verbally vent out my frustrations. After venting, life still goes on..right? As a close friend says, no matter what rough patches u been through, life still goes on, be it r/s problems, family problems...and when u r at a ripe old age and beginning to turn the pages of ur life like an old notebook, wun u simply smile and laugh @ how naive urself once was?

Right put that philosophy apart.

I been enjoying singlehood since my r/s ended almost a yr back. In fact I been enjoying until I nv know it is coming soon to a yr. Somehow, somehow, I thought I cld 'love' someone again. Yeah so I was getting tad bit hopeful...but after some funny incidents, I realise i better not get myself involved in a r/s,lest the same shit happened again like last yr. Seeing in tonnes of r/s problems in some forums really deters me frm trying or be hopeful into getting one. To me how can u truly love someone, not knowing if that someone also loves u to the same degree? Wun it be so hurting, so devasting when one day the one u thought to be ur one and only decide to leave u for someone else?

Even in the dating phase, what makes u think this gal or guy will accept u?

So it is all the 'what-ifs' and 'what-ifs' and more 'what-ifs'? When i was cowering like a coward, my close friend told me, no matter what even a r/s fails or what, life still goes on..and one day u will laugh at urself how silly u are. Well, that somehow struck a chord.

No matter what, life still goes on, until God decides to bring u back home.

elow at 12:01 午前 | (0) comments

水曜日, 7月 05, 2006

[Total exasperation]

Have u worked to a state where u feel like overturning ur table and simply just walked out of the office and simply give a fuck to everything? (Right right I am ranting again) I got a taste of such exasperation yesterday. I came to office earlier as requested. Before I could even settle down, I was already urged to amend the documents cos the Jpns wanna amend them. I dunno why is there a need to do it THAT fast like within half an hour when things were so messy, cos they just say 'change this. change that, on and this, oh and that and oh oh this plus that' Things cld be better if the instructions were clearer but what I got were fucking bad scans, small blur cursive handwritings. Deciphering the contents already took some time, and I was expected to make it fast?

The calls were endless, amendments seemed endless. The Jpns are a fucking bunch of arses, even threatened to cancel a big order? For fuck? I already emailed them, twice in fact about the dates. Now they say how come so late? I wonder where their brains went. I already did my part, they did not do theirs. So my problem? I was surprised I nv oveturn my table, kicked anything in front of me and trashed the PC and walked out. I almost did anyway, just an inch away at most.

The fucking translation almost made me burst my blood vessles and whoowheee yesterday was certainly great fun. My brain was literally working under a pressure cooker. haha..so much for the pay increment. Yayayaya, so its MY fault I cld not make it to China, everything is MY fault, it is MY fault I could not fax the amendments within 10 min, it is my fault the scanner cum whatever cld not scan things fast enough, it is MY fault my typing is not fast enough, it is also MY fault i live so far away from the workplace. It is MY fault for having to quit (then) and made them to offer me a pay increment. Everything is MY fault. Happy now?

FUCK YOU.

elow at 6:54 午前 | (0) comments

火曜日, 7月 04, 2006

[KNNCCB FUCKING tulan]

today is a day of being super pissed. first of all, I got a pile of patent shit to translate. Well as said, it is a patent for a new product, so all those technical jargons and shit and what have u are all there...wah lao! And I thot the machinery drawings are bad enough but the patent is the pits. I nv seen Chinese so fucking chim in my life! It is like asking any O level holders go translate Jing Yong's swordsfighting novel. U think its that simple as if like translating children's novels? Wah lao!! PCB!!! Then i told boss abt the difficulties I faced, I was sent a pile of English text, so called reference. Farking hell, its another pile of technical SHIT!!!!! KNN!!!!

LIMPEH worked until 3am this fucking morning jus to do the farking translation, heng im on leave today. If not how to hand up? Wah lao patent leh, how come ask me a fucking O Level standard (A2)guy to translate? Need to save also no need to scrimp on such matters right? nnb. Then I got some calls from my lady boss, she needs me to make some changes to some documents and I need to reach office @ 8am tml. WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT FUCKING DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE IF I FINISH THE DOCUMENTS btwn 9 and 9.30? WILL that make the factory to produce the goods half an hour faster? will that make the shipment to arrive half an hour faster?

Then ants invaded my dinning table chair this afternoon. Wah lao the entire chair is filled with ants!!!! I was knocking it to shake out the ants, only realising the ants seem to be never ending. The more i knock, the more fell out, so i took it out to the corridor and knock and sprayed tons of insecticides to kill those pests.

Another thing is my farking wireless router is giving problems, whenever i let my mac to go into slp mode, the stupid wireless connection will be broken. anyway i took itout by slamming the router a few times hahahah, like wat i did when my cable modem was giving disconnection problems. pcb leh, today's weather is fcucking hot enuff and things r giving me problems.

elow at 12:28 午前 | (0) comments