This is gonna be some old ramblings abt church,Singapore and other stuff if I am awake enough to jot everything down.
Are most Singaporeans afraid of voicing out their own opinions ? I think there was a Channel U program about this topic. Most Singaporeans are afraid to speak up,fearing the government or other bodies or organisations might sue them for talking too boldly or something. Prior to my previous entry which was seriously edited, one of my friend told me there was nothing wrong in simply voicing out your own opinions. There is a difference between defaming and speaking out your thoughts. Defaming is when you actually specifically annouce the person's name in your whatever, saying he/she did this or that which might be true or vice versa.
One of my ex-colleague just left. When I knew the real reason behind his resignation, I was quite shocked.
Its almost coming to a month being jobless at home. Finally went to the interview which I deferred it because I was having low-esteem/bouts of depression. The lady whom I thought was a Caucasian was actually an Asian ! She spoke with such a natural Caucasian accent that I thought she might be one. The interview was oke,as in just "oke". Its the type which you know you will not get the job. I applied for an admin post but I was offered something which was related to my studies. She even asked me to comment on the brochure which was made by their company's designer which was stationed in China. This company has office in shanghai and Malaysia and now they are opening a new office in Singapore somewhere in Robinson Road.
I dunno since when did this problem arose. I have this slight disability to make decisions and I am wondering why. Maybe its my lack of self-confidence which is so sublimable. Sometimes its there, sometimes its not. Though I believe most of the time, it is not. It's quite a chore deciding what to eat during lunch cos if i choose to eat mixed veg rice, I will feel that the chicken rice will taste better. Well, this is not that serious. Let's take choosing what drink to drink for example. I have a bottle of root beer and a bottle of grape juice. I will think which to drink cos I know both taste quite good, especially on a fcuking hot n humid evening like today. Then it happened - I CANNOT DECIDE !!!!
Oke I guess I must admit, the previous entry was a little exaggerating. Well, that scenario is undeniably a possibilty. Been out of a job since 31st May. Got a few offers for interviews but the thing is, as long the interview is related to design field, I always feel so reluctant to go as I simply hate the fact those people will not appreciate my portfolio = rejection. It's quite a blow to my morale and often set me thinking if I can make a living outta my diploma.
Oke I guess I must admit, the previous entry was a little exaggerating. Well, that scenario is undeniably a possibilty. Been out of a job since 31st May. Got a few offers for interviews but the thing is, as long the interview is related to design field, I always feel so reluctant to go as I simply hate the fact those people will not appreciate my portfolio = rejection. It's quite a blow to my morale and often set me thinking if I can make a living outta my diploma.
Oke I guess I must admit, the previous entry was a little exaggerating. Well, that scenario is undeniably a possibilty. Been out of a job since 31st May. Got a few offers for interviews but the thing is, as long the interview is related to design field, I always feel so reluctant to go as I simply hate the fact those people will not appreciate my portfolio = rejection. It's quite a blow to my morale and often set me thinking if I can make a living outta my diploma.
Oke I guess I must admit, the previous entry was a little exaggerating. Well, that scenario is undeniably a possibilty. Been out of a job since 31st May. Got a few offers for interviews but the thing is, as long the interview is related to design field, I always feel so reluctant to go as I simply hate the fact those people will not appreciate my portfolio = rejection. It's quite a blow to my morale and often set me thinking if I can make a living outta my diploma.
It's all happening again. This is what is happening to me now as it was last year around the same time.
Just went for another wedding dinner. My 2nd since my gf's sis's wedding dinner last month. This time, it was at a restaurant in Takashimaya.It's my mum's uncle's son wedding dinner. He wedded a Thai lady. But thankfully, the entire dinner was not Thai. My mum and I were supposed to wait for my uncle and his family. It was never my policy to be late,be it for dinner, appointment with friends,interviews. My uncle and his family was late and I was not too pleased with it cos it's so rude to be late for a dinner esp wedding dinner !! just knew my this uncle was recently retrenched and his wife dun even wanna work when his 2 children were old enough to take care of themselves. Well my other "more highly educated" aunt and uncle were at least more punctual.
I'm so afraid of falling back to depression now that I am jobless at home. The fact that I have much free time on my hands is risky as I might slip into a black wave of insanity,paranoia,self-worthlessness. Now that i realised the other importance of having a job; that is to keep myself occupied and not let my mind slip into an oblivion of self denial,self hatred.
yay im jobless slacking at home, same scenario as last year same time same place. I nv go to the designer interview again, fear of rejection. i hate having low esteem.
[Me]
Johann Low,Male.
[I Love]
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hypocrisy, injustice, shallowness, materialism, lies.
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