Johann Low

月曜日, 7月 10, 2006

[I thot I cld]

The past 2 entries were full of anguish and of cos laced with vulgarities. I mean what other ways to verbally vent out my frustrations. After venting, life still goes on..right? As a close friend says, no matter what rough patches u been through, life still goes on, be it r/s problems, family problems...and when u r at a ripe old age and beginning to turn the pages of ur life like an old notebook, wun u simply smile and laugh @ how naive urself once was?

Right put that philosophy apart.

I been enjoying singlehood since my r/s ended almost a yr back. In fact I been enjoying until I nv know it is coming soon to a yr. Somehow, somehow, I thought I cld 'love' someone again. Yeah so I was getting tad bit hopeful...but after some funny incidents, I realise i better not get myself involved in a r/s,lest the same shit happened again like last yr. Seeing in tonnes of r/s problems in some forums really deters me frm trying or be hopeful into getting one. To me how can u truly love someone, not knowing if that someone also loves u to the same degree? Wun it be so hurting, so devasting when one day the one u thought to be ur one and only decide to leave u for someone else?

Even in the dating phase, what makes u think this gal or guy will accept u?

So it is all the 'what-ifs' and 'what-ifs' and more 'what-ifs'? When i was cowering like a coward, my close friend told me, no matter what even a r/s fails or what, life still goes on..and one day u will laugh at urself how silly u are. Well, that somehow struck a chord.

No matter what, life still goes on, until God decides to bring u back home.

elow at 12:01 午前 |

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