Johann Low

水曜日, 8月 30, 2006

[oh life?]

Can't think of any suitable title.so there u go. I hope this will be a short entry cos my eyes are closing. Last week's been swell, met up 2 podders. Things went well except for that long wait (or mayb nt THAT long) @ Fish n Co's. I had blackpepper stingray again and I assured u it is darn good. So history did kinda repeat itself, well kinda since I also went out with bunch of podders last yr as well. But not as frequent for this yr. I was trying to keep things in balance and not outta control, well it almost did went gaga but good thing is I manage to hold back. I absolutely abosutely abhor that emotional roller coaster ride last year and I swear I will never go thru it again.

Things seem much better controlled except for the annoyance of 2 flies (u know as in when u r trying to have a decent meal then flies come buzz ard u etc), one young horny lame arse and one lame fcuktard flamboyant pompous flirt playboy wannabe. Well I can't blame the horny young arse for being lame, but for a nearing the big # fcuktard to act so hard up gals...especially SINGAPOREAN gals. What's up with SG gals? does it mean upping them make u feel as if u conquer the world or something?
Well the thing is u ain't particular rich, u dun look hot, u are just a lame fucktard trying to act flirt and drop dead gorgeous and please, backstabbing other males in front of a gal dun put u in a good light. Praising every pussy u see to the skies dun look good on u too. Same thing for that young arse. Saying cringing stuff like, 'I wanna lomantic only with u' dun make u look any better than a dog wagging his tail. well at least dogs are cute but u are not?

I invented a new word! Fcuktard! Anyway it stands for fucking retard, exclusively for uber lame arses and peasants. I can't believe I dedicated one para of my own virtual space to them haha.

Somehow i managed to find back that carefree feeling today after getting lost for a few days. I awfully miss it. It is nv wise to get involved too deep into thing related to humans. I find humans disgustingly ugly, if u get too involved into anything. The complexity is disturbing. For someone like me who can be so sensitive to almost everything, the best way to keep sane is to care selectively and only for the worthy.

For anything else, it is what I like to say. I dun care. I really don't. For this world is only temporary, I am only a passing through. My treasures are tied up,somewhere beyond the blue.

elow at 12:33 午前 | (0) comments

火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

[mee siam mai hum]

I got a lingering thot after listening to PM Lee's ND Rally..on this part "mee siam mai hum" (mee siam without cockles). WTF is mee siam mai hum in the 1st place? Then of cos all these started when I chanced on a link to the infamous Mr Brown's blog.Anyway the podcast is funny shit. Hope Mr Brown will not have anything happened to him.

That said, i still think it is nt that nice to make a joke outta politics cos politics is NOT entertainment.

mee siam is a local Malay delicacy....sour and spicy makes a great appetizer but since when it have hums (cockles)? I think I am slow not to catch the joke..Ah well

A online friend decided to tell of her suitor (fellow colleague, we shall call him birdnest) She was obviously serious disturbed by him, physically and mentally to an extend she had a nightmare of him chasing her down a staircase! WHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyway, his hair is one darn put off, can u imagine someone having pubic hair on his head? That's how it is like. Yeah u can imagine a lj standing from a head amidst a crop of lj hair?. From a man's POV, he shld honestly do something abt that repulsive crop.

Anyway this lady friend will pass him a letter to ask him to stop his 'acts of kindness' towards her...dunno wat will happen tml!

elow at 11:15 午後 | (0) comments

日曜日, 8月 20, 2006

[Another...]

Was kinda touched and emotionally stirred after watching this Sun's Te Xie. I dunno why but I just find it so motivating to watch how these people selflessly gave themselves to the needy. I am really thinking if I shld become a volunteer since I have so much ample time on my hands during weekends, anyone interested? I dun mind volunteering @ Ren Ci. haha..

Of cos before Te Xie I was watching the National Day Rally,which made me to realise that for those lot of Singaporeans who are always KPKB abt SG and its gahment's actions and policies. IMO, they do not know what they have now is not something that has come easily. The peace,prosperity that so many of us be it the younger generation or older are so taken so much for granted already. One foreigner once commented, she saw many Singaporeans complaining. She said alot of those who complain dun realised is that what are the things they are having now. What also they dun realise is the things they taken so much for granted never did come easily.

Honestly, I was like them.until I went overseas then I realise how pampered I was in SG,from the orderliness,cleaniness of the streets. I appreciate how clean the air is in SG. The time when I was there made me to appreciate what I have in SG so much. The air in Beijing is terrible, there is hardly any order on the roads, people spit, people drive as if they own the roads. When I was in Jpn, I appreciate how convenient it is to commute to most places in SG. I have a Malaysian colleague telling me before that Singaporeans are utterly pampered in terms of commuting here n there. Anyway the thing which I dun really appreciate of SG is the humidity and the heat. And of cos I miss the local delicacies so much. Who can live without chicken rice all these?

Today (mon) is so god darn HOT, the air is warm, the water is warm yes WARM!!!! it is a furnace. While typing this entry I am literally dozing off. Not sure if it is the goddamm weather or what. Oh well, just another monday.

elow at 11:20 午後 | (0) comments

月曜日, 8月 14, 2006

[Caring]

Business trip is officially postphoned til end of September cos the Jpn is too beysong to meet us now. Anyway, it is definitely fine with me.

Surprisingly I did not do my weekly routine of blogging last night (Sun) cos I thought there was nothing to blog about. Indeed last night, i was too unsettled to blog abt anything at all tho there shld be some topic for me to do so.

Does anyone watch Te Xie? The uber nice and touching and though provoking show every Sun night on Chn8 10.30pm? The last 'season' was about foreigners living in SG and how they preserve their heritage and culture through food (one of the ways). Last 2 week's were about caring for the needy in today's society. Last week was on a special home for mentally disabled, last night's was on the needy elderly. For those selfless volunteers who devote their time and effort into helping these people, I really admire them. Nonetheless, I envy them.

I admire them to be able to devote themselves to others tirelessly..I envy them to be able to gain happiness in such a way. While watching them, the thought of becoming a volunteer did cross my mine. When I saw how simple happiness can be, the smiles which shone so bright and so sincere and ever so pristine. I was overwhelmed, least to say bewildered. Then it dawned upon me that, "Happiness can be very simple." It need not be about having 5 condos, 10 posh cars, 10 million dollars in ur bank, it need not be to find someone who dote on u. It can be as simple as seeing others well and happy, it can be as simple as caring for others from the utmost sincerity of ur own heart. Happiness is contagious.It can spread from a single hand gesture, to a simple smile, to a nod on the head, to a look in the eye.

In this rat race and often cold society, what the people @ Bright View Hospital had done seem almost holy. Then when I look at some of my friends, esp those blinded by money. I wonder if they are happy? I am pretty sure, they can tell me in my face they are not happy because they have no money! They have not achieved this term called 'financial freedom', a very MLM term. Getting urself in the viscious cycle of wanting a bigger car, more money,bigger house AND an EVEN bigger house and an EVEN BIGGER CAR AND MORE MONEY, when will it end? When will they stop,think and say, enough is enough? If they are manage to get 'financial freedom', will they be happy? Happiness laced with the stench of cash is so frivolous.

Is it so hard to be happy? Happiness can be just in front of ur very own eyes.

elow at 11:41 午後 | (0) comments

日曜日, 8月 06, 2006

[=/ Japan trip? =\ And 1 yr of singlehood]

It is quite possible that I might go for a biz trip to Japan (again) on the 20th/21st this month. Well this is becos there are some stupid issues. I guess it is pointless listing the details here cos it is pointless. The funniest thing is this might be a uber short trip cos one of my Jpn client needs to go back on the day itself! haha..so the meeting is only one day...

Work is relatively ok. Been making alot of overseas calls lately. Honestly for work, there's nothing much to tok about. As for personal life, it is quite empty, dull and grey. Days are work, home, work, home work,home.How very routine, how very monotonous. Life is pretty grey. I wonder if there ever be someone who can paint some new colors into this...urgh life, if it is called a 'life' in the 1st place. I am not hoping much or do I dare to hope much..for someone as wretched as me, do I actually deserve anyone? I hardly go out anymore,considering the fact I am quite broke.haha..communication with the outside world is my colleagues and bosses..as for my colleagues, i hardly speak to them, well they are sitting rather far away. I am like one isolated island in the floor plan of my office and my seat is in between the offices of the 2 bosses. haha. The other form of communication wld be online and tad bit of sms. No more phonecalls, no more late night chats...=/

Well it is just past my one year of officially single. One year of being single! YAY! Have anything changed? I guess nothing much changed, except for my perception of certain things.

What have I learn to see? Nothing is absolute,except for God. People change,things change,everything changes. Are friends forever? Are enemies forever? (Ok maybe diamonds are forever) Are couples forever? Are marriages forever? (in Christian terms, marriages ARE forever) Sometimes I wish things will not change, I wish somethings had not happened. People come, people go...

So can someone tell me for those who came and left, what were their purposes?

elow at 11:47 午後 | (0) comments