Johann Low

日曜日, 9月 23, 2007

[home alone]

The mind is settling well, not as bad as I thought. As always, I tend to get over things fast. Then came a thought, am I really getting over or just sweeping them under the carpet? *shrugs*

Mum went Taiwan this thursday with my aunt. Sent her off in the morning. Hmm since a long time I been to Changi Airport, the last time was in Feb when I was going to chinkland? Nothing's changed tho except for the building T3.

Coping well better than I thought, perhaps the only difference is no breakfast and no homecooked dinner. Dining out is fine but hawker food is usually oily (I dun like fish soup stuff eee) and of cos not as healthy and economical than homecooked meals. Not to say, nothing beats home cooked meals! Work is of cos keeping me upbeat and relatively sane. Certain things still remain more or less the same. Those bouts of uneasiness among crowds (those stupid thoughts as mentioned in my earlier posts) still swell at times.

I rem vaguely, I almost broke down while walking alone in bugis or where was I, on the bus? haha. I dunno what happened then but it just came like that. It was just a 'feeling' of being alienated among the crowds. And I so like this song 'OK' by Zhang Zhen Yue:

生命之中有多少经历
还值得细细回忆
尤其是感情那些刻骨铭心的回忆
好多年都不曾忘记
我们都在寻找真爱
花钱也不能买
但是你问我什么是爱
它没有正确答案
只能凭感觉
在人海里寻找所谓的爱
有人随便玩玩
有人拼了老命在玩
有人一辈子没有伴
过著东奔西跑的日子
来到不熟悉的城市特别容易孤寂
想著挥之不去的问题
尤其面对自己总是没有头绪
感情和个人的平衡点常常失去重心
放手上风一吹就会掉下去
有时却想放弃
摇摇欲坠其实最自私是自己

我可不想装的很可悲
好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很ok
顶多如有时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok

走一步算一步
寻寻觅觅当你遇到一个喜欢的人
却不想在一起
也许只想一夜情而已
放了真感情却害怕自由会失去
这世界上只有两种人
男人和女人
每天上演同样的剧情
谁又爱上谁谁又背叛谁谁又伤了谁
乐此不疲的表演好累
但是没有人能够脱离再翻离
谁可以跨越出去
结果因人而异
有的信守终生有的继续等
有的干脆剃度
永远不再过问
这红尘滚滚心中是否沸腾
还有多少时间值得继续等
曲终人散走在陌生的街上
剩我一个人唱

我可不想装的很可悲
好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很ok
顶多如有时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok

爱情面貌我是不了解
却把自己搞的很狼狈
有一段时间我不ok
把灵魂混在黑暗里面
当然还是有一些小小的痛苦在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok

elow at 1:45 午前 |

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