Well I think this is quite in contrast to one of my earlier entries. Surprise surprise. I surprised myself with that stupid gesture. Looking back, I guess I am the type of guy who is to selfish and self centered. I probably love myself than anyone else. I think it is hard to be in an equalibrium, that perfect state of balancing loving urself and loving that someone. Can anyone do that anyway? I like things are now. Being totally liberated,untied,unattached,free. One night, while reminisce-ding, I realise I wil probably hurt that someone more than being able to love her duly. I can give selflessly, as proved by myself once. But if I get nothing in return, what I will get is just a battered soul. One's character is something that is hard to change, I prefer to have my own private time MOST of the time. As much as I loathe lonliness at times, I do like to be left alone at times.

So I think God will be good enough to spare His good daughters from someone like me.