Ever since I got that oh-so-fresh taste of absolute freedom after being single and ditching whoever whatever were there, I see myself as being the likes of a wild horse being set free in the open grassland. Freedom is good no doubt but what abt when u have too much freedom? What I see is this abundance of limitless land in front of me and I dunno where to run to or even when to stop. I feel that there is NOTHING to stop me from doing what I want well except maybe from my own laziness which IS a stumbling block most of the time. I feel even more so (nothing can stop me) cos no one cares! I can do anything, I can well do anything I wan, spend anyway I want, eat anything I wan, go anywhere I wan.

Sometimes I wish there is someone to hold a rein on me to prevent me from going completely outta control.

As contradicting as it may sound, I desire freedom and yet desire some form of attention. I like to be alone and I like to be surrounded. I avoid going out to avoid seeing people, especially lovey dovey couples. It is an irksome sight. Well even if I see I will just laugh it off, telling myself how much happier I am being myself and me. How much better and easier it is to be dealing with myself than to put up with that someone's temperament, pityness and whatever. I find it stressful to watch that Kim Ng and Bryan Wong's 'Yuan Lai Jiu Shi Ni'. I on my music loud enough to muff the sounds of the show emitting from the tv set.I tell people in forums how much it is to be single, perhaps I am trying to convince myself as well? Yes? No? I am not even sure myself.

Anyways, I was completely drained out last night after work. I felt as if there was a huge stake being impaled onto my chest. Currently, my attention is focused on Flairs Affairs, junk food like pringles, supper which is the sausage bread from Q-Talk, my new phone which I feel like changing already as dust keep going into the lcd, or any new gadget on the market which can catch my eye - ipod video. Wah lao it is so thin! Anyway that is on my list now hehehehe...

Yawnz