It is pretty amazing what emotional flucuations the human mind can have. One moment sensitive, one moment down, one moment normal, one moment high.I shall not divulge the main cause of the ups and downs. It is prob me, the same old me. Imagining too much, wanting too much - yet again.

My imagination power is grossly fascinating. I can think up to a million and one scenarios and even have the speeches all up, naturally. And worse thing is, it can be fcuking real, so real it does not seem like a self-painted beautiful portrait of what I desired to happen.

Throughout this emotional transition phase, it is not hard to see why some people find it hard to move on from their past r/s. Friends can advise u, parents can scold u, the whole cycle can go over all and all over again but if the receiptian is not receptive, no matter how much sense being honed will be useless. This is proven when I went to chatroom and ranted all the shit I want despite all the kind advices given to me, they seem not to be be any use, honestly.

Oke maybe some did went in but they did not hit the core. they merely went into superficial layer and just stuck there. The medication nv really reach the much needed 'core'

The same thing happened again this afternoon, emotions were boiling. I hit a downtime low, depression started to sink in. Somehow or rather the kind podders were affected esp one da jie. She was pissed off! She told me off straightaway and her anger seem to be of some therupactic effects. I being to stir and things were getting clear.

Tho some things or images might invoke some tangible feelings. But they quickly dissipate, like a fart in a typhoon. Things ar definitely looking and feeling better.

Why?

Cos I learnt to let go and step aside and take things in my stride.

Casting my will aside and let Him to do His. Weak as some non-believers may say, 'No' I'll say 'Im strongest when im weakest.'

No matter what, the one who caused the stir will be in my prayers.