Hanging in FP (Flowerpod) has brought me some insights on how most women see and handle their r/s being current or ex. Most gals have problems letting go of their past r/s esp those who have not found someone new. And its certainly heart wrenching to listen to their sob stories. No matter how old or how young u r, once the hormones in ur body start to kick into action (puberty) which normal gal or guy dun wish to have that special someone..or SO (significant of the opposite sex - FP term) to love and to care for?

Strangely enough I seen many female podders not being able to let go of their past r/s. Some said they wanted to move on, some simply dunno or simply too tired to 'run' another r/s. Indeed, having a SO can have its ups and downs. Having to deal with emotional problems can be over taxing 'emotionally'. But sometimes, the returns are sweet, nothing feels sweeter and heartwarming than having ur SO in ur arms when u are weary and tired, the smell,feel,touch and everything else.

So what is this thing called love? What makes a man and a woman to be so intimately attracted and bonded together?

The 'process' of having 2 persons to meet and fall in love is intriguing and in deed full of wonders. I have a podder friend who got to know her current hubby when her hubby was selling vacuum cleaner and what was amazing was they had knew each other for over 10 yrs.

I am still not that used to be singlehood after being attached for 3 yrs +. It brings me back to the days of NS. Lonely weekends and lonely nights. Balancing myself on a wire between sanity and depression is challenging. Well I was lucky to have a bunch of podders to chat me through the nights. I do missed the late night chats, I do missed the hugs and kisses. I am not Krypton, I am simply a normal and mayb slightly complicated homosapien. I dun look back on past r/s cos nothing will be the same again unless fate dicate it.

Well perhaps I should look more into singlehood and enjoy the freedom it brings, tho sometimes I rather be attached to a special somemore. I cannot focus my attention on too many things or people. I rather have one.

BTW, I bought Cai Chun Jia's new album. It is pretty good!