If anyone ever stops and look at the calendar and ponder. 6 months/half a yr has gone. Most of my peers in my circle are working. I wonder if they have ever looked back and think how much time has just gone in a instance while meeting deadlines, having meetings,rushing to meet clients,doing proposals...

For this yr, I was wasting,practically prostituting myself to work in my ex-company. Everyday is like a mold die cast. Emails,fax,emails fax,lunch,emails,fax,errands,go home. I rem I will always be so darn tired after work. I practically slumped myself onto the MRT seats and sleep 80% throughout the trip home. Yes I was paid but I guess I nv really get to enjoy these 6 months.

Jet fighters zipping over my flat means NDP is drawing near. Soon it will be NDP and once it's over it will be countdown time for X'Mas, then its another new year.

I never really thought of my future when I was working. I was living from day to day. Everyday, work, work work,weekends slp,then work work work. Well not until this June. Especially after watching You Fu.

The 1st few episodes makes me to think what I really wanted. Doing a nice portfolio so that I wil be employed in a design firm or as a designer is quite meaningless. It is almost too late for that. I might as well do one for interest's sake. I was floating n drifting like a snapped kite in the wind. Mayb for too long, thus I wanna settle down in the next few yrs, hopefully before 30. Well maybe in the midst of that, will be getting a driver's license and also get JLPT 1 for my Japanese.

Looking at my r/s, the problems ARE there. And nothing is being done or is the fact that NOTHING can be done. I did whatever I cld to but it takes 2 hands to clap. Ignoring the problem is not going to help in anyway. Anyway it is more or less settled, not the problems.

Does man and woman see r/s differently? Why can't some people take it into their stride : if things work out, fine. if things dun, why will anyone wanna wallow and get hey ho emotional over every minute details of whatever is going on inside the head? If things dun work out, let it go then. Just dun sink into some self made depression shit hole and wallow why why why why and getting teary and crap.

If e reason for the above is gals are sensitive, then I assure u, I can be as sensitive or more sensitive. Dun argue.

What will be, WILL be.