From friendster, I see one of my close friends who just ROM with his pretty wife. He just got promoted and now got himself a pretty wife. Then I look ard, it seems quite a number of the people I knew are either getting married or ROM-ed or going to ROM soon. Then I look at the fat,pimpled face fat primate with a bulging belly person in front of the mirror and a feeling of loss,helpless-ness and a myriad assortments of "feelings" swelled up my empty brain.

I thought to myself, "So wtf have I been doing? 25,outta job,never held a job long enough,unsettled,so unaccomplished,childish,selfish,obnoxious,poor,fat,bad tempered,got a gf but her family hate me to the core cos I exposed their dirty deeds etc etc"

Currently doing my portfolio, so even if I manage to get a designer job,will I be able to keep the job long enough? What is causing me to be so unsettled, to be so unsatisfied, so not willing to settle down..so much like a kite wanting to break the string which is anchoring it to the ground.

So...what should I do? And what do I want?