Johann Low

月曜日, 5月 16, 2005

[A Day at my workplace/Soul Erosion]

I guess no one will be interested in how my workplace is like but more for documentation purposes.

Every morning I will wake up to the self composed techno tone of my mobile phone K700i. My phone will ring at 6.40am often jerking me up abruptly. Sometimes I will stir up abit earlier n continue to slp a little. Then I will proceed to the bathroom to washup,brush teeth. Then had breakfast,shit,bath,pick clothes,shave,style hair and set off to work.

Sometimes I will miss the earlier train and I will have to squeeze with the commuters. I realised there is a funny pattern in the way the trains arrive. There will be a 1 min intervals (trains less packed) and a 3-5 min intervals (when the trains will be very packed). I will alight at Doby Gaut, go down all the way to the NEL and then to Chinatown.

Normally I wil reach office at ard 8.45am. There was one period when I wil always go to the toilet to shit 1st. WHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.

My accountant colleague will arrive shortly after I arrive. Then it will be my manager. There will be always 3 standard phrases which I will speak to my manager daily:

1) Ohayou gozaimasu.
2) Gohan wo tabe ni ikimasu. Used to be hiru gohan wo tabe ni ikimasu. Now is tabeni ikimasu.
3) Saki ni kaerimasu.

Since my manager dun like to tok to me, I guess my Jpn will not improve anyway if I were to speak these 3 phrases everyday. One of the reasons why I wanna quit.

I will need to wait for my lousy AMD PC to bootup which wil take ard 3 min. then I will need to look for relavant emails for me to do. I dreaded last min changes, last min bookings and emails which I do not understand.

Tick tock tick tock, 1.20-1.30pm = Lunch time. For lunch I will have 1) shrimp dumplings noodles, 2)mixed veg rice,3) recently HOKKIEN MEE~!!!! Little snack after lunch will be mostly a big fat curry puff. Since now I lunch alone, often I will have some spare time. So what will I go to use this spare time? Eat loh!!!

For the shrimp dumplings noodles which tasted damm good, I will buy $3 as I will be adding noodles. For mixed veg rice, sometimes the amt is too little and e result will be me buying the fat curry puff. Anyway it all depends if I feel full or not after the main lunch.

If i buy currypuff, I will walk to Chinatown Pt and stand at one quiet corner to eat my big fat delicious curry puff. I wil make sure I have 15 min before lunch time's over to wash up.

After eating, if there's some time left, I wll rest at the life area with some ledges for abt 10 min before making my way to the toilet at my office area to wash face.

The rest is eroding my time,morale in my office until 6.00pm. then its YAY!!! TIME TO GO HOME LIAO. Since young, I always feel elated whenever its time to go home from school or from tuition. I always feel there's a certain attraction for me to just go home. That's why I do not like to go out often which my gf sometimes said im a boring guy.

To me, I only go out to buy things I need, or when I feel like going out to shop.

I feel so eroded. I can almost feel and see myself being eroded and devoured slowly inches by inches by work. My time does not belong to me. Its being bought by $1500 a month by my company. Time sometimes passes by so fast that I feel I cant even have the slighest grasp of what is happening.

Everyday is like what is described above. the only thing I am looking forward is weekends where these 2 days are the only days where I feel like myself. Not someone to be fed into a system to be devoured soul and body for working for the sake of working. It is like losing urself, losing urself for 5 days a week, then only 2 precious days when ur soul will be returned to ur battled body, often so tired and drained out, weekends are better spent at home sleeping n idling.

I REALLY cannot comprehend people who can work like a machine without leaves,MCs offs for a few years. How can such a feat be achievable? Its almost inhumanly possible.

The only thing which kept me going for these 6 months is my Mac and the amt I need to pay back my loan from my mum for my Mac. Now that by next month I will be clearing my "debt". What is/are next to keep me going again? PS3? PSP? D70s? Apple Cinema Display 20" ?

Perhaps I am not in my right element. Perhaps I am just too tired. Perhaps I need a good detachment from work to find my element. Perhaps my element is not in this world.

elow at 11:21 午後 |

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