Johann Low

土曜日, 7月 24, 2004

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Excuses.

It is so easy to give urself excuses. Excuses to be late, excuses not to do this do that. Excuese to buy things, excuses to eat. The army is a great place to learn how to excuse urself. I nv know myself to be so good in giving excuses, so good in running away from situations. There are many things which i wanna do but just because I am lazy, I simply excuse myself to make me less guilty concious.

1) I wanted to improve on my portfolio, an excuse for me not to continue my contract with my ex company. But in the end I never did do anything.

2) I wanted to pick up Maya, Flash, Freehand and improve my Photoshop skills but again I never did, even with a new PC. I even thought of getting a Dual processor 1.8 Ghz G5 jus to learn the mentioned software.

3) I gained weight in army. I bought a skipping rope because I have an excuse of not liking to run. I bought a $250 Nike Shox running shoes because I told myself or my mum then I will be using them to run.

4) I convinced myself in buying a $420 15GB ipod because I was lazy to lug around the CDs and my Cd player. I thought of getting a new one (4th generation, better battery, new click wheel, like the ipod mini)

5) I did the same in getting a digicam because I thought getting one is convenient ( it is as no films needed). I thought of getting a new $2K+ professional Digital SLR because I have so much limitations with my present one. I bought the digicam because I though I can use it to capture textures for 3D modeling.

6) I bought a $500++ professional 3D card cos I told myself I will be using the card to do 3D modeling.

7) I am thinking of changing to a new mobile (my current one just 3 months old) hhwahhaah cos I just feel like changing it to a new one so that I could have something to focus on. haha

8) I bought a new pair of speakers because I thought my old one was not good enough. I bought my old one then because I thought my older one was not good enough too.

9) I thought of getting a new pair of in ear bud noise isolation earphones (Shure E2c - $175 cash price, Shure E3C - $349 cash, Etymotics - $200+++ cash) cos I thought my current Grado SR60 $120, is too bulky. It still is too bulky because of the wires and it does not isolate noise if I wear them on the train or bus. but then the sound quality is top notch. It beats the lousy cheapo original ipod earphones hands and legs down.

And of cos there are many more. I know I need to touch up my portfolio but I am not doing anything. I just installed Maya 6 but I am simply too lazy to do anything. I did run through the tutorials last Sat when I just got hold of it. But today I simply wasted my day doing nothing. Why the hell am I not doing the things I should do and doing the things which I should not do ?

I think I give and gave myself so many excuses because I cannot make up my mind. It is a way to convince myself in some way. I told myself I am lazy because I am simply not willing and not knowing why I am so reluctant to do anything. Laziness to me, is an excuse.

I have been listening to F.I.R, a new Taiwanese band which has been making waves around Asia. They are really good !! Faye (lead singer) is so charming, whhahahaha though some commented she is very normal looking. My 1st impression of them was they reminded me of D.A.I especially Faye's big eyes. They are a band and the songs in this album are rather catchy and to my liking of course. Oh they will be having signature session tml at Westmall 7.00pm and one other place in the earlier part of the day.

I wanna watch i,robot and House of Flying Daggers !!!!! AAaaaarrrrghhh

elow at 11:15 午後 |

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