Johann Low

日曜日, 1月 25, 2004

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there r times when i will sit back n look @ myself (n others)....and think.....im really good @ almost nothing...i cant draw, cant make nice animations, 3D models....my designs tho i think some r quite good and innovative but no one seems to appreciate them. I dunno Flash, html, java and all needless to say...my photoshop skill is almost at an amatuer level, e same for illustrator, 3D Max.

--i forgot to add i was designer trained--

I noe i can change all these..but there are a few things which i cant and that is my laziness and impatience. But strangely enuff, i can have to patience to fix a Master Grade gundam model. No, to me its not a simple task cos there r simply too many parts to fix. Model dependent, there can be as many as A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H,I,J,K different plastic sections comprising of countless plastic parts. A MasterGrade gundam model has a internal skeleton to fix up 1st, which u have to individually snip off the small part, remove the unwanted studs and piece them up. Some areas like the leg needs screws. Its freaking detailed, esp when the different markings n labels come in.

I still hve 2 uncompleted MG models and 3 High Grade models (smaller n simpler) AND im thinking of buying more..hehe

elow at 1:14 午前 | (0) comments

月曜日, 1月 19, 2004

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Besides SARS, now this bird flu is coming wif a vengence. What is next ? SARS, mad cow disease, ebola virus, bird flu, foot n mouth disease..Another ting which sets me thinking is what can those fucker "Islamic" terrorist do besides flying planes into buildings and setting off car bombs.

Fcuk those extremists Islamic followers...fcuk religion which offers violence as a way to the truth. What truth ? Do anyone know that only Islam n Chrisitianity sacred scriptures from God offer such violence ? Try reading this

World War II is catalysted frm German Christian beliefs. So whats so good in a religion which promote killings n violence ? The Bible is full of such dark phrases as to kill unbelievers etc etc...it is only us humans who wanna hear only the "good stuff" and unconciously "ignored" the darker n menacing barbs of Christian teachings n beliefs.

elow at 12:52 午前 | (0) comments

日曜日, 1月 18, 2004

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Been dreaming funny dreams lately, one which i can still rem is I dreamt my father was a murderer !!!! It felt so real that when i woke up, i was floating in between the "real" world and the "matrix". So i do wonder, how do u define real, WHAT is real ? Things that u feel, smell, hear or taste ? All these r stimulated by our brains so if a dream which dun exist can feel so real, how real can this "real" world be ?

I got alot of things to buy, 1st ) a all in 1 printer, fax, scanner, copier. There is a HP model selling at $149. Anyway im thinking of getting an Epson @ $300 ++

2nd ) new discman, jpn model. something which u cant find in sg. Since my senior is going there to work n he agreed to get for me. HAHAHA !

3rd ) a new watch ?

Oh yeah, not to forget, Zard and my little lover r releasing their new albums in 10 and 3 days time respectively !!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope i can get the Jpn imported versions. And oso namie amuro new album which i cant locate any Jpn press yet, hope Towers can get one for me.

elow at 12:11 午後 | (0) comments

月曜日, 1月 12, 2004

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The human body is weak n vulnerable to all sorts of disease, injury. After watching Stand Alone Complex, the anime version of the classic sci-fi animation movie Ghost in the Shell, how i really wish i can "transfer" my brain, my conscience, my thots to a artificial cyborg body and pls dun think im insane or wat cos im perfectly serious.

I hate it when pangs of depression or blues set in me. I really wish i can be as what i was used to be when i have not got into NS. There is no seemingly any way i can fight it when it "comes". Arrgh

elow at 11:13 午前 | (0) comments

木曜日, 1月 08, 2004

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Wondered if anyone has experienced sitting in a train besides someone who wears a perfume to powerful it felt like facing a tsunami of volatile oils concoction. Better still let such a person to be accessoried wif a pair of deafening earphones pumping out free music for all to hear. Nice hor ?

I saw this hip young lady again this morning @ sembawang mrt, no she is not pretty. Why i rem her was i rem i was sitting besides her wif the above mentioned scenario. The CD she was blasting her ears wif was EXACTLY the same as what she was listening to today.

A new colleague came n "took" my PC. Anyway the pc which i had been using since the 1st day was not mine. It belonged to a ex colleague whom my eyes nv laid on before. I shifted to a new location wif no PC on my desk and a "used to be" down tel line. The only subtle difference is that now the tel is working. Abt the telphones in my office, there r 3 models. One is simple n striaghtforward like any house phone, while e other 2 r more complicated wif rows of buttons for different functions.

Work is mundane. I need to save up more $$$ for a new PC.

elow at 12:49 午前 | (0) comments

木曜日, 1月 01, 2004

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Chatted wif a poly friend on new year's eve. He mentioned something abt r/s. He did a very detailed analysis abt human r/s and he made it so bloody raw. It is like going to the Human Body Exhibition @ Expo and u can to see the insides of human, so me, his analysis is like doing a autopsy on human r/s. Its a bit sad, pessismistic, cold and so bluntly disected and its kinda true if one carefully probes deep into it.

He said something like, "Ultimately, all humans r selfish. Since all r/s is bound to the fact that it will benefit oneself or bi-beneficial. Like a couple, each party satisfy one and other in some way, companionship, sex, materials comfort etc etc. Another example is when a gal leaves for someone else, the guy will feel hurt or betrayed ( or vice versa ), again it boils down to oneself, it is U, urself who is feeling hurt and betrayed. U are the victim. U are hurt. U are betrayed."

Er..enuff said cos im not wat am i bladdering abt..hahaha

After watching Home @ Toa Payoh, some of those gossiper characters r so loathesome. I really abhored people like those aunties. They r ignorant and act as if they noe the world. There is one thing i hate most and that is IGNORANT people. And i simply hate pple asking me obvious questions. :P

elow at 11:57 午後 | (0) comments

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Yay its 2004 and im turning 24 !!!!!!!!!!!! :(

2004 New Year wishes

1) get a new pc wif the following specs - P4 2.6 Ghz or 2.8 Ghz with HT, 512MB RAM, 80GB HDD 7200 RPM. Japanese Win XP Pro @ $350. Total at least $1.2+k

2) buy Sazabi, my (hopefully) last and most expensive Gundam MG model.

3) save up more money

4) discipline myself to lose some weight n other things

5) Better economy in 2004. Year 2003 has been terrible. No more SARS, wars, terrorism.

elow at 12:00 午前 | (0) comments